I have such a hard time dealing with change. I always want everything to be the same always that way there is no surprises. It’s like when something happens completely out of no where it takes me a long time to process what is really going on. It’s like I put reality on hold for a wile just so it will all process what is going on. And after things happen then it takes along time for me to feel normal. My problem is that I’m always trying to live in the past; I’m always looking back instead of ahead. I never want to leave my comfort zone.